i know this is my third blog tonight

I know this is my third blog tonight,
But i've just got so much on my mind.
I just love my friends so effing much.
I love Molly and the way she's just such a big part of my life. She is just so funny and she adds to every conversation and situation in a way no one else could. I love how we talk for a couple hours a day. And if we go out we go home and talk some more on msn. She loves people even when they dont deserve it, and she just is so fun, even when she's grumpy. I love her more than sandwiches!
I love Tyler and everything about him. I love every moment i spend with him and how we can do absolutely nothing and still have the best time. I love how he keeps me grounded and how he needs me to do the same thing for him. His friendship is one of the most valuable things god has ever given me. I'm so proud of the person he's become and the obstacles he's jumped.
I love josh mills and the way he has of popping up when i need someone, even when i dont know i need him. I love the bible conversations we have and how we just love eachother. He can encourage like no other and i cant wait for the summer when i can see him everyday.
I love Carlye and all of her quirks and our STUPID inside jokes. I also love her red hair...
I love shawn and everything he has done for me. I love the way he has with people but with youth in particular. I love sitting at tim hortons with him just listening to us talking with a smile on his face. And i love above all else his commitment to his family.
Josh Reno, oh man, what a guy. He's grown so much and i'm crazy about him. He is going to crazy things with his life. He's already such a leader.
Sarah Packwood. I adore her with everything in me. She is sweet and funny and lovable and loving. If i could live with one person she would defs be up there.
Mike Anderson, I love him most of all. I've grown up with him and watched him become this incredible person. I'm so proud of the person he's become, and i love listening to him when he gets talking about god. God is already doing crazy things through him, and despite his "spiritual gift of being a dick" i think he's an incredible friend. I wish people would look past his talent and his looks and really get to know who he is. Because he is so much more. Haha a wild jaguar if you will...

Through your eyes

How do you really see me?
Through the camera lens that adds 10 pounds and distorts my colour?
Through the rose coloured glasses that take away all of my faults?
What about the carnival mirror that changes my shape and features?
Am i beautiful and important?
Or simple and plain?
Do my looks really matter?
If i was truly ugly would you love me just the same?
Am i the bestfriend?
The object of your affection?
Do you really know how you see me?
Does it really matter?
Does your heart skip a beat when i enter the room?
Do you even notice?
When i laugh do you smile?
Or do you cringe and think i'm annoying?
I could try and interpret the things that you say.
But to be honest i'll just never know.
I wish that you knew,
So that you could tell me.
Really who am i to you?

Mixed

So its been a long time and alot has happened.
Scott is no longer the youth pastor of neighbourhood church.
Shawn resigned as our youth pastor.
Its been a bit difficult this last month or so.
Alot of tears...to be honest.
But christmas was fantastic.
I have a job at superstore, which is actually a great job.
I rememorized the codes effortlessly.
Personally, i'm a bit of a mess.
Lately people have been telling me i'm really strong.
And they look up to me and i keep them accountable.
But who am i to keep them accountable?
I havent been able to find my bible, so i havent been reading.
Which is lame since i have a million bibles in my house.
And i want to start reading again, i do enjoy it.
And with shawn leaving i feel like i need to step up big time.
But i know that it would be disatrous if i'm not reading.
So i really need to get back into that.
I need to find my bible, because it's dumb but i really love my bible.
I love the notes and how wellused it is.
I also need someone to keep me accountable.
Thats about it for now.