It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger'
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You know how sometimes you hear or see something that just moves you?
Maybe it's just been an emotional couple of months for me, but I find myself getting sentimental alot more often.
I was watching a movie that ended with this song and it was just very sad. It's an incredibly beautiful song by Regina Spektor called "The call." There's something about it that is just so incredibly sad but beautiful. I find myself thinking about the future alot lately. I don't know what i'll do with my life or who i'll share it with. I realise that I dont have alot of female friends which scares me alot. I used to enjoy having only male friends, but when we're all grown up and married, I wont have them anymore...it's just not proper right? Mainly, the future just scares me.
I watched "Twilight" a couple weeks ago and it was like this song. I was thinking about it for weeks afterwards. It stuck with me and had me feeling sentimental. I've never been overly into chickflicks..but this was so much more. It gives hope, which I know sounds corny. But if they could make it work, eventually I can too right? It's a story about the kind of Love that every person should wait for. But then I remember that most marriages end in divorce, not to mention the doubt that there is actually one person out there me. I've just been thinking about it alot. I've always prided myself on not needing a boyfriend, but the older I get the less important that is. I dont want to be telling my cats in 50 years that I never needed a man, do I? A funny thought, but a sobering one.
Alot of the people I grew up with are getting married or will be within a few years, and I guess i'm kind of jealous, because i'm so afraid of my future, and they're so sure.